Waiting for the Lord’s return means that a man still goes about his business, but his eyes are set on the Lord’s coming…If a believer is not careful, but substitutes other things for the Lord’s return, he becomes fallen immediately.
[M.E. Barber’s] whole life was a life of preparing for the Lord’s return. Day by day, while she lived on the earth, she waited eagerly for the Lord to return.
(The Collected Works of Watchman Nee, Vol. 60: Miscellaneous Records of the Kuling Training (2), Ch. 28: Waiting for the Lord’s Return)
I was considering this on the drive back to Grandma’s. At first, I didn’t understand how I could live this way. There is the natural zeal that gets stirred up after a message, but to be able to live this way consistently…faithfully…without eventually feeling weighed down…I couldn’t quite see it. Or so I thought. But then I reflected on recent experiences, and it made sense.
It depends on how much you treasure the one whom you’re waiting for.
And that, I realized, was the whole of it. I can care about something so strongly, but how much do I care about the Lord?
So Lord, I need Your appearing. Because while I appreciate You, it’s apparent that I’m not that eager to be with You……yet.