I’ve been telling myself that a lot. Now, I’m just waiting for it to really sink in.
I realize that I’ve graduated as an objective fact, but in terms of my experience, it’s somewhat surreal. It even seems that there’s a mental block that prevents me from considering too much all the implications related to being a graduate. I get the fuzzy feeling that I’m no longer bound by certain outward regulations, but there’s still somewhat of a disconnect in my head. I’m not saying that I don’t have the inward regulation of the law of the Spirit of life anymore, because I do and it’s quite active. My point is that I no longer have to show up to 11 roll calls in a day anymore. Which means the thought is no longer, “Oh. I have to be faster so I won’t get a tardy,” but more, “I need to be in the meetings on time and ready to exercise so as not to dampen, but help uplift the atmosphere of the meeting.”
Basically, what this all boils down to is that I now need a paradigm shift in my view of all things and matters.